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Hello all...
I am not feeling like writing
anything and even still, here goes...
I notice
the
tendency that I have to listen to the "old reactive mind," or
"mortal mind" ... that is the part of me that is resisting
writing this month's newsletter... not even wanting to
complete this... I hear the voice say, "... turn on the TV...
forget this... who cares about it anyway?"
I am still
writing... I ignore that voice. It
is the same voice that judges everything. The critic. The one
who angers, who reacts... I'm not listening... I'm still
writing... In this spring season... it's good to turn over the
"old soil"... pick out the obstacles... the rocks that would
prevent good seeds from sprouting. Ernest Holmes of
Science of Mind once wrote, "When you first start getting your
garden ready, you are likely to find that it contains a good
many stones, weeds, hard chunks of earth or rubbish. These
need to be cleaned away if the soil is to produce as you
desire." He went on to say "Similarly, old complexes,
attitudes and habits certainly will ruin your harvest in the
spiritual realm unless you get them out"...
I'm still stuck
in the "I don't want to write
mode"... Must be the Vermont mud season... or my reactive
mind. Where is my harvest in the spiritual realm now... I'm
not sure I want the answer... maybe I'll change my mind and
write this after all...
Turning
over the old parts of me, clearing
out the old attitudes, and habits, that would mean I'd better
write.
Ok, so here goes...
Nope, nothing.
My garden
does not know the difference
between good seeds or bad seeds. My reactive mind doesn't know
either. Right now... if I stay in this mode, what could the
harvest be? Doesn't feel like I am planting any good seeds.
It's best
that I learn not to pay attention
to the part of me that finds what I commit to, a burden. It's
best that I keep my word and write. It's best that I do what
is mine to do no matter what. It's easy to turn on the TV and
quit... it's easy to say "no, why bother?"
And that
is NOT what I want to harvest.
I'll write and I'll keep on writing. I know it's best... maybe
someone who is feeling the same way will read it... like "why
bother" and maybe they will bother...
That's worth it.
Thanks,
Steve |
